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The Mean Reds

I am three days shy of having been back in America for one month and I have no idea what I’m doing.  Moving back in to my old house didn’t require too much adjustment, although it did take me a good three weeks to fully unpack and organize.  For some reason I irrationally thought that unpacking my things meant I would be locked into staying in Ohio.  Totally not the case.  If anything, it means that when I can move it will be easier to find everything to pack up. 

Getting back into the swing of American life has not been a big obstacle so far, but I haven’t really gotten out much since I’ve been back.  Tipping at restaurants does feel weird, though. 

My main issue is that it still feels like a summer break from school.  I GRADUATED ALMOST A YEAR AGO WHY DO I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS?  Transition periods suck, but I know I will continue to be stuck in said period until I can officially begin my career, not just a job.  I have been feeling waif-like; just floating around with no set life structure.  I don’t need a rigid schedule, but I do like to have some constructs in my life.  Most of my life, I was dedicated to going to Italy and I achieved that dream three times over!  But I made the mistake of not really thinking long-term, when it comes to my career goals.  I know I want to be an event planner/ coordinator, but where and in what capacity?  I am still waiting for something that motivates me as much as going to Italy.  Whether that is a job, a relationship, or a place, I can only wait to find out. 

I’m learning that you don’t have to stick it out once you make a decision.  You are allowed to change your mind.  This is not me saying you have carte blanche to flake out on your commitments, but if you truly believe that you made a mistake then you have the right to do something about it.  That being said, never make a decision lightly.  Do you think I made the decision to return to the United States at the drop of a hat?  It was one of the most difficult choices I’ve ever had to make and I know I will always wonder if I made the right decision. 

On top of all this, I’m not sure what I want to do with this blog.  I know I want to keep it going, but I’m not sure what my focus will be on.  So please bear with me!  I do appreciate everyone who takes time out of their day to read my blog!  

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