I read an article that said dating is all about getting to
know someone: their likes, dislikes, and discovering their personality. I realized that for most of the past two
years I have essentially been dating myself. I’m not getting over a break-up or anything,
but when a lot of life changes happen or are thrown at you, it can be easy to
retreat and forget yourself.
Instead, I have learned how to be alone. Sure it gets boring at times, but at least I
don’t use being alone as a security blanket anymore. It used to be that I was alone because I
was afraid to “put myself out there” (still working on that). I have made some improvements on this front,
and now I don’t purposefully isolate myself from people, unless I need to
recharge. I am still an introvert after
all. I now take advantage of
opportunities to not be alone, which makes me appreciate the time I do have to
myself.
via The Huffington Post
I am much more self-aware, especially of my good and bad habits. Thanks to this, I have been taking small
steps to gain good habits and to lose the bad ones. That’s not to say that I don’t slip up and
give in to old habits, but I don’t beat myself up for it anymore. Now I can accept that it happened and just
keep working toward my goals.
When I think about my life two years ago, it seems much
farther away. This time two years ago, I
was probably just hanging out at my residence hall, excited to be done with my
second year of college. A lot of people
that I would see on the regular I don’t see any more (not just because I moved
to Italy or because I don’t consider them my friends, which I do). Things change, people move/graduate; the
small things you thought would ruin your life – now you can’t even
remember. People aren’t lying when they
say “don’t sweat the small stuff”. Yes,
some embarrassing moments can haunt you in those moments right before you fall
asleep at night, but chances are, you’re the only one who remembers. I have a hard enough time remembering things
about myown life, let alone the embarrassing moments of others.
via collegecandy.com
Okay, well this blog post took a turn, but anyway… I have
changed and grown in the past two years, probably even more than I realize
right now. And I will continue to change - it’s kind of
exciting.
