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It's Always Good to Know Your Options

It is amazing how the "little" day-to-day choices we make can eventually influence our "big" life choices.  Remember how I have been agonizing about making a decision regarding my future?  Well, a decision has been made. 

Come this June, I will be returning to the United States of America and I will remain there for the foreseeable future.  While I will initially return to Ohio, I do not plan on staying there long (ex. Snow and my hatred of it).  Where in America will I end up?  Who knows?  It all depends on what makes the most sense for my living and career needs. 

As much as I love Italy, where I'm at right now just doesn’t feel like “home” to me.  I’m the type of person who needs to have a feeling of “home” somewhere to be truly comfortable.  This was not an easy decision for me, in fact, it was agonizing.  I didn’t even realize what I wanted until a subconscious statement I made to myself took me by surprise.  I honestly couldn’t believe it at first, probably because I’ve been fighting against the idea of moving back because I love Italy so much.  Would I like to continue living in Italy if the conditions were different?  Absolutely.  Are they what I need right now?  No.  Would I ever move back to Italy if the opportunity presented itself?  Without a doubt.  My choice to move back does not lessen my love for Italy in any way, shape, or form.  I will always be an Italo-phile.  So far this experience has given me some great moments and I have learned a lot about myself along the way.  I'm sure there is still plenty more in store for me in these next couple of months!

I must say, now that I have FINALLY made a choice, I am kind of impatient for it to take effect.  Not because I want to leave Italy, because I don’t, but that’s just the person I am.  Making decisions is what is excruciating for me, but once I make them, the follow-through is usually a cakewalk (a bit strange as I am also the kind of person who needs options).  Please, no one feel sorry for me, I am doing this because I WANT to move back.  I realize now that I am not ready to live abroad for an extended period of time, despite now being the most convenient time for me to do so.  Plus, I can finally say that I have completed the number one item on my Life List.  How many people can say that about themselves before they're 22?  I consider myself as one of the lucky ones.

This is not me “giving up”; this is me realizing what I NEED as opposed to what I WANT.  I guess you could say I'm finally growing up now.  Peter Pan would be ashamed.  Although, I would be lying if I said Italy's lack of Dr. Pepper and Doritos had nothing to do with my decision.

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